I was done – completely and utterly done. Everything was impossible: work, home, family … nothing was working. I was exhausted and felt so alone. My bedroom was on the second floor of a beautiful old home in Southeast DC. I could climb out of my window and escape to the roof where I could see the moon and the stars. This was my habit. I usually went out there to read, but on this night, it was the only escape I could find from the swirl I was in.
I just sat there and cried. iTunes was playing in the background and “When the Saints” by Sara Groves came on. I didn’t hear it at first because the volume was so low, but I hadn’t heard this song in a while so its distinctive cadence caught my attention. Actually, It was Holy Spirit that caught my attention – this song was meant for me in that moment.
It put my current pain and struggles into context. I wasn’t alone anymore. I felt like those who came before me in faith saw me and were cheering me on. That God himself was kissing me on the cheek saying, “hang in there – I’m with you just like I was with them.”
We find comfort, strength and encouragement in the stories of those that came before us in faith and in the ongoing stories of those who are with us on the journey. No matter who you are or where you come from, when you give it all over to Jesus you gain a whole new lineage and a vastly extended family as you find your place in God’s eternal story.
Here’s that song – enjoy!
Wonderings on the Way 